As some of you may know from facebook, I didn't have the best day yesterday. Was supposed to work again. Got up at 6.30am, felt very odd, but got showered & dressed very slowly & by 8am was ready to go. Told Jacqui I felt very strange, but walked out the door, 1/2 way down the path & turned round & spent the rest of the day in bed....
Fortunately I have 2 wonderful Ruth friends!! & they came round in the evening with a fruit plate & freshly made cake & I felt better than I had felt all day. Tnx for your support.
I was hoping to make this blog only positive, but then that has turned out to not be the reality.
Today I felt marginally better, had lunch out with my lovely sister-in-law Anne, just locally, bought some fresh dates at the suggestion of Corinne, great idea! they are delicious. I even ate sushi which I am pleased to say tasted quite normal, it was the right thing to eat. Suddenly flaked & Anne took me home, slept again, all afternoon & I made it to my psych appt at 6pm.
I was supposed to work for the dermatologist again Thurs & Fri, but just got a call from the agency saying they dont need anyone for those 2 days, in some ways I'm relieved, but in most ways I really need the work.... lets see what eventuates.
Seems that I can eat tasty things rather than bland or sweet, Jeff F's idea of lime juice cordial has made water taste so much more palatable!! still cant face green tea & thats what I drink most of!!
Working hard to maintain my positive attitude, though it is just a natural way to behave, not contrived at all.... right now Im wondering why I agreed to chemo, was feeling so well before it started. dont know that its worth this to do it 5 more times..... have to be talked into it I think. what r the good points to me having chemo? since Im only having it as preventative not treatment. so it takes me to 30% recurrence, & then radio to 20% recurrence, I have to find out what the recurrence rate is if i just go straight into radio & forget this nasty chemo stuff. very interested to hear views.
Hey Debs, we certainly don't expect only positive posts from you. It is refreshingly honest of you to say it how it is. The chemo will definitely be playing havoc with you. Everyone must react to it differently, but keep up the positive attitude. It must be awful losing the tastebuds for your favourite things, but there will still be plenty of food you will be able to enjoy. There is also a delicious ginger cordial you can get to add to the water just for a bit of variation. I am sure the doctors will advise you the correct route to go. If the chemo offers a good prevention ratio then you should probably stick with it. The radiotherapy has its own side effects, so it is a bit of a vicious circle. I know some people recommend alternative therapies, but these horrible methods are made to do the job of killing the cancer quicker. You can be sure everyone goes through the same feelings Debbie when they start chemo......I know you need the work, but at the same time you need as much rest as you can get. Sleep is a great healing process....We are all with you on your journey...Jeff xxx
ReplyDeletetnx jeff - ur def have the ability to say the right things!! glad we have met & become friends (even slept in your house!!!) xxxxxxx
ReplyDeletejust trying to help you along...you will hopefully be getting a lot of advice from women who have been in same situation which will also be a great comfort. We have helped friends through it, and thank god everything worked and they are fine. It is the unknown which scares you the most. You are doing great, and whatever advice the doctors give, take it. As the chemo has already kicked in, they will more than likely recommend staying on it. You sound like you have a wonderful circle of friends over there...they say one good friend is a gift, you have many. xxx
ReplyDeletei do have many friends Jeff, both here & there! & even elsewhere lol - its fantastic. im going to find out more, but i dont want to find out too much, i dont think thats wise for me...
ReplyDeletehere here.....the thing not to do is ask too many questions....just listen to them and take it in. My father in law asks the doctors a million questions and ends up so simeesht !!! You are in good hands
ReplyDeleteWho would have though that Joker Jeff really can talk sense too, Debbie? :D
ReplyDeleteI agree with Jeff and you know I am here sending you massive huuuuggggsssss.
Stay positive and let everyone around you be your strength my darling.
Hopefully speak to you on Skype again this weekend!
Love
Ruthie
xxx